Normally when I feel the blues coming on I go into psyching myself out mode and just change the feeling.  But this time, I am just going to complain about it for a while!

I believe that sometimes it is good to get in touch with those depressed feelings and experience them.  Even though we have the power to change them.  These feelings spring from somewhere, and I would like to fix the leak at the bottom of my mind. 

Of course, I believe it is way easier to be negative than it is to do something positive.  Going to the gym for example.  It is way easier to stay in bed than to go to the gym.  Once you get to the gym, it is way easier to just take a steam bath than it is to hit the equipment.  And if you do psyche yourself out to hit the equipment, it is a lot easier to stop at 20 minutes than it is to go for an hour.  This rationale never ends.

So life is obviously just trying to get us to waste away.  It makes me think of being an over comer.  We not only have to overcome the devil, and ourselves, but there is this stupid clock that never stops ticking.  With every tick, a part of us dies.

Life seems to be in the vein of riding a bicycle up hill.  When I pedal I make some progress, but when I stop pedaling, I am backsliding.  What a quandary we are in!

What motivates us to pedal up hill?  Passion.  But what if the passion dies?  Can we find it again? 

I have lived life fully and accomplished lots of goals.  I am at a point, where I think goals are pointless.  Who cares if I work my butt off for 10 years and save a million dollars?  That seems fruitless.  Money is great and all, but I don’t want to be a slave to it.  But then what do I want to be a slave to? 

What did the preacher say about this?

Ecclesiastes 3:22 So I perceived that nothing is better than that a man should rejoice in his own works, for that is his heritage. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

So his advice is to enjoy our work.  But what if the work I am doing sucks?  I guess the preacher says to do something else.  Make my vocation a vacation!  Whatever!

I guess even King Solomon got into that “All is vanity” mode.  Well at least it wasn’t beneath him.  That makes me feel better. 

If you buy the concept of living forever, then we better figure out a way to do something that makes us happy.  Because forever is a very, very long time. 

I wonder if someone would pay me to ride roller coasters?  Hmm..  That seems like a job I could enjoy!